A Challenge

"God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble."

Psalm 46:1

So I have been in hibernation mode for the last few days. It has been cold and dark out for days and I felt no reason to go outside. I asked people if it was bad that I hadn't gone out in days and most of them really didn't say no. I'm not depressed really I just am comfortable in the house and I'm not alone usually Mom is with me and I'm just enjoying the little bit of down time I have because sooner then later I will be a working girl again.

I have also been trying to avoid the food outside of the house. Its hard enough to pass by my Dad's chip cabinet or his cookie corner but outside I have to pass by the McDonald and pizza huts and all that tasty crap that I am trying to cut out of my life. Its a struggle... its a huge struggle but I am trying really hard and so far its been 4 days of not one refined sugar.... honestly, I feel like I am quitting smoking not quitting eating junk.

Tonight... I face a challenge. My parents have just ordered Chinese food. Oh I love Chinese food. From the soups to the breaded fatty chickens to the egg rolls... ohhh I love it all. They asked me what I wanted and I at first said well I can just have an egg roll... I proceeded to go check out calories on those little buggers and didn't like what I saw. I knew that if I ate a 250 calorie egg roll it wouldn't ruin my day but it wouldn't make me feel any better... and what if my food addiction theory is true and I eat that deep fried egg roll... knowing me I will want more... and those cravings are hard to come by so I ordered nothing. I am challenging myself to not take a bite of any of it.. 

I made my dinner and it actually was good and the truth is right now I am not hungry. I took whole wheat spinach spaghetti (Dad says it looks like green worms) and mixed in turkey sausage and diced tomatoes and baked it all together. It was actually quite yummy and it was filled with fiber and whole wheat and protein. I was going to add cheese on top but I figured that it would just add more fat that I really didn't need.

I have printed out a lot or core exercises that I can do on the ball and I am going to make a whole area to hang those pictures and directions up. This way if I don't do anything else in a day I can work on these key moves to help tone my body. 

I am also working on a gym plan and going to start back hard Monday. 

Wish me luck in the fight to keep the Chinese food out of my mouth... Here goes...