We all need a little boost from time to time

I will refresh the weary and satisfy the faint."

                                       Jeremiah 31:25

Sometimes in life I think we need a little boost. We need someone or something to push us forward. On a diet though I think we need a boost daily. I am trying to find a way to get a boost daily without having to relay on others. Right now my boost comes from reading messages from my blogs or talking to people about my diet but I want something else... something more my own. In the past I have done things like paste beautiful women on my walls but now that seems tacky and childish... plus I don't want to look like them, I just want to be me, a healthier me. I have also been looking to Jesus for a boost and I can find thousand of verses from the bible that give me inspiration... partly a reason why I am sharing a verse with my readers everyday. I still am looking for something else... Does anyone have any ideas?

I regret one thing about my actions during my surgery. They told me to take a picture of myself every month from surgery day and so on and I didn't do that. I didn't do that mainly because I couldn't stand to look at myself then. If you haven't noticed you wont see any pictures of me pre-surgery because I refused to take them. I did have a few wedding pictures up but I don't want to look at those since obviously my marriage was a sham and I have little to no desires to look at those. I think that if I took pictures every month I would really see the change in myself. Since I have nothing to base my current size on... I cant compare and to me I am still the same. So anyone out there in the process of surgery be it bypass or lap-band please take my advice and take pictures... it may hurt now but I think it would really help on the healing process of things.

So I am going to Maine I think. My best friend in the whole wide world just gave me a nephew Landon and I want to meet him so I think in a couple weeks I am headed up to Maine. This was a hard thing to decide because of some issues at home and I knew my mom wasn't for it but didn't understand why. I guess my mom is scared I might move there which there is no way in hell I want to stay there for three reasons.... 1. Its FREEZING and I HATE being cold 2. I have no one up there anymore but Jenni and a few aunts and uncles which I love but its not enough to keep me up there 3. I have no job or even a potential for a job... heck I cant even be a CNA up there without going back to school and D. There are a dozen or so people up there that I would have to come in contact with and I just don't EVER want to see them again... So Mom... if you are reading I PROMISE to come back to you but I would really really love to see my friends before I start a real job again. 

So I guess I'm gonna head to bed... I have a new habit of watching Hannah Montana from 12-1, eating whole wheat toast and a small glass of skim milk and being passed out by 1. (I know I'm crazy but if one thing I got from Kris was Hannah Montana... That is ok).

So goodnight everyone... I am going out of town tomorrow but I am taking Mom's laptop and going to try to post but if you don't hear from me... I will surly have a lot to talk about by Sunday. 

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