Isnt She Lucky?

Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.  

Psalm 143:8

The following came from the last two Chinese Fortune Cookies I have had.... 

 Enhance your Karma by engaging in various charitable activities.

Follow your hear and you will find happiness.

I want to first and foremost say that I am one lucky girl. I am lucky on so many levels that I cant even explain to you right now. I am lucky because I have an amazing support system consisting not only of my parents but of so many of my extended family and so many friends that I could call my sisters and brothers. I am lucky because I have my health... sure not the best health but I have the ability to make it better... I am lucky because I have shelter and food to eat and clothes to put on my back every single day.  I am lucky because I know God as my savior and I thank him for that over and over again. I am lucky because I have a solid education and will be able to find an amazing job.... eventually :) I am lucky because I have known love and trust that someday, I will know love again and this time it will be unconditional. 

The point is, I need to stop dwelling on what I don't have and being thankful for what I do. I have everything I need in this world and the rest is just going to be extras. We went to a program the other night and church called cardboard confessionals. The idea was that church members young and old would write down their confessions or testimonies on a large piece of cardboard and then share with the church. It was an amazing experience for me, one I never really expected. A young boy, maybe 16, stood up in front of the church. His cardboard wrote "I never had a family, I was never really loved" and as he flipped it over it said "by the Grace of God I now have a family that loves me for me." This boy's message made me sad. It made me sad because of his story but then I became angry at myself for cursing my life. I began to realize my life is not bad in fact its probably pretty good compared to most. Yes I have had trials and tribulations, I think we all do but in the end I have family and health and someplace to call home.  

I don't want to make this about God but I believe that God has a huge part of where I am right now and I thank him for it every single day. As sick as it sounds I thank him for putting me in the place I am right now because for the first time in my life I feel at peace. Sure I don't have a job yet, but I will get one. Sure I don't have my own place, but I have an amazing set of parents who I get to see every single day. Sure I don't have someone to love, but I will find him. Life is too short to dwell on things that you want, because if you have what you need, it should be enough.

I have faith that my life will turn around and I will find things I want, but it cant be on my time. Life is all about decisions and we make decisions based on so many different things but we need to follow our heart. Our heart will lead us home.

My goal is to make my readers really look into what they have when they are complaining about what they don't have and appreciate the good things in their lives. Things can always get worse... always... and it helps me to use every day as a new day of Thanksgiving. Who says that we cant celebrate what we are thankful for every single day? I know I can! 

I know this is short and sweet and I do have a not so great diet update for tomorrow. I just needed to get this off my mind.